was i that esay to forget ? you are still haunting me but i guess you found someone that makes you happier than i did, despite all i did. I just learnt it, and truely, it fucking breaks my heart. I cant help but pathetically sob right now. I still love you, and i still care about you, but at the same time, go fuck yourself. I hate you. I am absolutely never gonna be enough for anybody, even for you, who said you loved me so strongly. you just cant lie like that. I am drowning. Or at least i wish i was. Fucking hell, when your trust is so fragile, and you finally decide, foolishly, to give it to somebody, and they still fucking shred it appart, it truely shatters you. I want to wish you the best with her, but i just cant lie like that. Deep inside, i want you to not, and to come back to me. But thats being a bad person. Fuck you, still, but i am the other piece of shit of the story and i fucking get it. i wish all those fucking times death was so close to getting me, it got me. I probably wont let it the choice next, tho. Fuck humans, man. There is nothing i hate more than my own spiecies.